Because I said so…

Sometimes when you walk with God you hear what to do, but the Lord answers my questions with the words, “because I said so.”

As a child, when I heard those words fall from my mom’s lips, I would get so mad. I can still remember those feelings of resentment and confusion.  Why couldn’t I know?  I have always been a person with FOMO (fear of missing out) long before there was an acronym for it.

I love to go and do, but more than that I love to know. I love to know the why. I love to know the who. I love to know… you get the picture.   I love to KNOW.  When I would ask to do something and mom would say no and follow up with because I said so… frustration so high.  I guess I should have gotten used to it….

Fast forward 40+ years to now, and I am still hearing that from my heavenly Father.  When I heard it as a child it was because I couldn’t understand or the reasons couldn’t be shared with me. They weren’t mine to know.

The same is true now.  God says because I said so -because I can’t understand yet or it is not about me. Sometimes I will get a glimpse of what is going on but just a glimpse.  As I grew up, there were moments, I sensed why mom would say no. 

With the Lord, it is about walking in “because I said so”.  I must walk with a good attitude honoring and waiting with trust.

I didn’t have a good attitude as a child about it.  I sometimes would get to a good attitude. I would say the same is true now.  I pout with the Lord and throw questions and complaints at Him.  There is a fine line with the heart when you are in this place. You can question in faith and hope, or you can question defiantly.  The verse in Numbers about complainers on the edge of the camp getting burned with fire comes to mind.  Also, my mom’s favorite expression about little bunny Foo Foo and not liking my attitude comes to mind. 

Learn to trust and wait like Ps. 131 as a child who loves the Father as sustenance for their heart and life.  Speak to your heart or mind depending on where the problem is coming from and rest. Psalm 62:5 My soul waits for the Lord for all my hope comes from Him.